Learning...

“Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete…” James 1:2-4


So far, 2009 has been a learning experience for me. I have learned so much about myself in the last 2 1/2-3 months and I have a feeling I will continue to learn more. I have so much more self confidence in myself. I think student teaching, a phone call from my Aunt, calls from friends, and my growing relationship with the Lord, has helped me so much with believing and trusting in myself. I don't catch myself doubting decisions I make as often as I use to. Last semester was so tough on me and the thoughts of, "is this really what you want to do?" would creep into my head making me sometimes unsure of myself. But now I know that this field is my calling. It is so exciting to be planning out the next couple of years that isn't so focused on getting through school even though I will be going for my masters degree.

I kind of had a rough start to this year and then I found out that the number one cause of it all was stress or the effect(s) of not being stressed after being stressed out for so long. Although this week was some what sad for me, I can honestly say that I am truly HAPPY! I haven't been this Happy in such a long time. Don't get me wrong I had awesome days, great days, and good days...but not with out worry or something going on in the background.

It is just a great feeling to have right now and I enjoy it! I hope I continue to keep my focus on HIM and take the steps that he has already mapped out for me (and Shawn).

I better get to bed. Brycelyn and M'Kambrie are staying the night tonight and we have to be up early in the morning. It is 1:07 am (sorry if there are typos or if it doesn't make sense.... I just felt like sharing a piece of me)

I will try and update tomorrow!