tired...

So today I am exhausted!!! So I have made it to where I can fall asleep between 12 and 1 which it works and I feel like I am getting more sleep but for some odd reason last night I was wide awake until 4. I think I finally fell asleep watching richie rich. I don't remember Shawn coming home at six, but I do remember the alarm going off at 8 so he could get up and get ready for court. Then the phone rang a little after that and I end up having to work today. Oh well I got a 10.00 gift card and extra hours out of it. Today was a beautiful day outside. But I did leave work with one of those uneasy feelings.
I know I haven't worked at my job that long but their are a lot of regulars which I guess is what happens with a small town. Well one guy J he is an older man probably in 50's maybe 60's anyway he normally comes in the evening and gets an ice cream bar and a coke. He eats his ice cream bar inside the store and usually talks to me or whoever for a good 30 minutes. Well during the week he comes in around 2:30 and gets a lil debbie cake and a coke and does the same thing. Today he tells me that this morning he found out that he has throat cancer and they will be removing it on Tuesday. Then his friend B comes in who is about the same age and he gets his diet drpepper and beef jerky and tells J and I that he found out this morning he has Colan cancer. I was at a loss for words, two guys in one day. I just kept having a flash back memory of when Stephanie told me her leukemia is back, and it made me sick to my stomach. All I can do is keep them in my prayers. It is just crazy...how one day your life can change in a moment. I mean I thought I have had major problems these last two weeks being sick but that's nothing compared to that.
So today I found out that I am working Thanksgiving evening and Christmas Eve, but the good news would be I get Christmas day off. Shawn works Christmas Eve and 6 hrs into Christmas day. Well I am going to go to bed...now that I have typed a novel.

NO fun!!!

Watching Shawn eat when I can't is not fun!!!!

What are you looking at?

Well we are off

in about 30 minutes~ Hope everyone has a great weekend.....I am wondering who is going to last longer....I slept from 3:30 to 5:00 and Shawn has been up working all night...it will be interesting!

Yea

So I was right and I have strep and guess what it got me? A shot in my rear! It hurt like crazy, it even made me cry. Anyway I shouldn't be contagious after today. Which is good since I missed school on Tuesday, I really don't want to miss tomorrow. I thought I would be feeling better today but I am not, I actually think I am feeling worse. Just thought I would give yall an update~

2 am randomness

Have you ever thought that you were completely over something just to disover by one small thing happening that the hurt and anger and the why questions come back? Does one ever really truelly get over something and move on?


btw...this has nothing to do between Shawn and I so don't go thinking that something is horribly wrong between us

Yea, so I think I have strep...I am going to the doctor tomorrow.... so no school for me. I felt fine when I went to work but by the time I got home I had a headache from hell, my throat hurts, my stomach is upset, and I have a fever. So I went to bed and now I find myself awake...and then I came across something that just got to me. I think only a few people would truely understand me on this one and I am sure if I get to feeling better tomorrow I will be talking to those people.

So....

What do you think about the new look?

I have lost 2.4 lbs. I know it isn't much but it means that I am on my way to shedding the lbs. I was doing so great before we moved here and then all of the sudden the weight I lost was back again...which is due to a number of reasons. I think one of the reasons was lack of sleep, which meant lack of energy to do anything. Anyway I am proud of myself! My goal is to loose 12 lbs by the middle of Nov. So that means 10 lbs to loose! I just wish I could find a work out partner here or something, it would make going to the gym easier. I like to go with Shawn but he likes working out at the PD with his work buddies and I really dont like working out in front of them.

Scarecrows are too cute to scare!

Can you say over stressed?

lol anyway, So I studied studied studied for most of the weekend and guess what? I think I over stressed myself for no reason. I knew the stuff. I do have to say that my hand did hurt writting out those essay questions. I never really understand the people that turn in an essay test with in 10 minutes. So I finished my essay test in 50 minutes and some people got done in 30 to 45 minutes and then there were like 10 people still taking when I left, but I just don't get it. lol I guess it isn't my grade. Anyway thanks for the prayers and I know you can do it! I am so glad Shawn is off tomorrow even though he will sleep most of the day. I got to see him for 5 minutes this morning I was gathering my stuff up and he was undressing and crawling in to bed. lol I guess the good thing was that I didnt have to make the bed! Then I didn't get home until 7 and he was at work at 6. The sad thing is, is that it will only get worse next semester and really bad in the summer. So I don't know if I told yall but it looks like I am graduating in Spring of 08 instead of December 08. Pretty much a year a way!

*Test day*

Yea so this really is test day!!! I walk in to chemistry to find out we are taking our test today instead of Thursday! Anyway she was nice and let us use the book but the book wasn't that much help since it was formulas, but I know I did great on the vocab. Can you believe that I am making a high A in this class. It feels great! So I know I should be studying but at this point I feel like I either know my information or I don't. And in my next class this is the first time I have ever taken one of her tests so if I don't do to well on it I will know how the next couple of tests are formated. I am not really worried about Dr. Thomas because I just realized that the essay portion counts for 40 points and I know that I know enough information to get 30 of those points. I can't wait until I am completely done with today! My next class is at 12:30 so pray for me, then I have my following class at 4 so pray for me again!

All about me and my hair lol

 

Help Help I'm drowning

A take home test due on Tuesday and two tests on Tuesday. One of them has a review that looks like a review for a final exam.... the other is all essay but you have to know research and who and what it says while answering the essay questions. Thats all for now...hopefully I can swim to the top. See ya Wednesday if I make it to the top.

Once again the sleepless nights come uninvited

However, it is different, I know the reason. But I don't really care to share right now, perhaps another post for another day. Long-long story and when I have more energy I might post about it. Just know that I always knew what being a cops wife meant, but experiencing some of it, is totally different than just knowing about it. And I am greatful to have two awesome loving parents that no matter what time of night/morning it is are totally there for me and I thank you very much for that!!!

Anyway, the reason I am posting is to vent...
My headliner on my myspace is the following pic:



So a person I will not name, just know this person is not yet married, sent me a message telling me she thought it was inappropriate for it to be my headliner since I am married and "supposed" Christian. And I should not post icons like that.

I just simply replied... Do you not plan on marrying your future best friend? Is God not one of your best friends, and who are you to decide whether or not someone is a Christian?

Their reply: I'm not stupid! I know that when I am married I will not put my bestfriends before my husband. That will make my marriage last longer than yours.

Okay I didn't reply tonight, because I had a feeling it would start an even bigger thing but here is my reply that I wanted to send... Obviously you don't get it. Shawn is one of my best friends, he is besides God the top priorities in my life. And Where in that icon does it say that I am putting my other friends before my marriage. And Where does it say that my marriage is in trouble or that it isn't going to last???? So I know people have different thinking patterns but really the icon is what it says, it isn't a piece of art work that has some underlining meaning behind it and who has time to try to analyze someones life by a simple icon they post? If you ask me maybe you should analyze your own life instead of mine, because really all you are doing is assuming and you the old saying that when you assume you are really just making a ... yea so hopefully you get the point.



So I am just curious what people get from the icon....what it says, or do you find yourself trying to analyze my life over it? Because maybe I am wrong and thats fine its just something I never expected over such a small pink icon.


So anyway I feel better that I have vented...
Here are the lyrics to my newest favorite song. It has been on there all day... maybe she should have listened to it. Okay enough about it!


"Isn't That Everything"
by Danielle Peck

I might not have a million dollars in the bank
But Ive got food on my table and gas in my tank
I might not have designer sheets on a king size bed
But I lay down at night with a roof over my head

Yeah Ive got friends who love me
And a big blue sky above me
And your two arm around me baby every night

Isnt that everything
I dont need anything
Its only the simple things I believe
That matter most in life
Im more than satisfied
All that I have is all I need
Isnt that everything

Im not saying I dont dream from time to time
Every girl I know loves the way a diamond shines
But when the partys over and the glitter starts to fade
Its all about your peace of mind at the end of every day

I know Jesus loves me
Up in that sky above me
I see that morning sun again and feel alive

Chorus

Yeah Ive got friends who love me
And a big blue sky above me
And your two arm around me baby every night
I know Jesus loves me
Up in that sky above me
I see that morning sun again and feel alive